Just some thoughts..Lonely tonight.

Well, as you can tell from earlier posts I am writing poetry again. Right now though, I'm sitting here..just music in my ears..I'm lonely tonight. Don't get me wrong..I have gotten used to the fact i'm single..i've even embraced it. Sometimes though, it gets the best of me. There are so many things i miss about being in love with someone. The butterflies you get in your stomach..they way your heart beats so fast you can't breathe. The hugs, kisses, and cuddles. I wonder sometimes if i'll ever find that love again. I had it once..the most passionate love i've ever known..and somewhere along the way i lost it. I guess it wasn't in God's plan for me.
I want so much to find someone special, someone i can call my best friend..someone i can share the rest of my life with. Will it ever come?? They say good things come to those who wait, but the waiting part is the hardest. Endless nights of the same old routine. I want someone to come along and totally take my heart...i want to feel that passion again. Maybe, it will come. As you can tell from my poetry..i'm mostly writing about unrequited love. Why..do you ask? Well, you see I fell in love with someone not so long ago. I thought at first that it was just a stupid little crush...I thought I was just being silly. I've realized though..those feelings i had haven't went away. I would say that's more than just a crush. I still see him from time to time...and he still captures me everytime. Just seeing him smile..melts me inside. I had the chance to tell him..and I never did. That I regret..but I knew not telling him would be the best thing.
Oh well, thats over and done now, yes, i still care for this man very deeply, but i knew i had to let go. I will not sit here and cry for someone that i can never be with..that would just be a waste of my time. So, i will continue to pray...continue to hope and have faith that love will prevail. The greatest of all happiness..is to love..and be loved. Well..goodnight!